Monday Musings

I’ve always envied people who know their purpose in life. Writers who say they have to write, as if it’s a compulsion. Men and women who have the calling from God and know they are going into the church in some capacity. Actors, dancers, and musicians who were just born to perform and have been doing it since before they could walk.

I’ve never had that certainty. As such, I seem to drift along, trying new things, liking what I do one moment and in the next being unable to stomach it for one more second.

Ironically, I am always certain when I’m ready to move on. Whether it’s because I’m bored or because i’m no longer learning or being challenged or I’m just over it, once I reach that point, the desire to run away as fast as I can becomes overwhelming.

I’m at that point now. But, I’m tired of it. I’m tired of not feeling grounded, tired of feeling lost and unsettled.

And frustrated.

I think I know what I want to do. I had a conversation with my aunt who told me to ask God about my heart’s desire, and this path popped into my head. It’s an idea I had years ago and set aside. For a brief moment I was excited, but I still fear that one day I’ll get bored. And this is not the type of thing you walk just away from.

Now I’m stuck, unable to move forward and it’s the worst feeling.


It’s a Birthday Celebration, Bitches!!

Around the World in 80 Books

We are celebrating 80 Books’ first birthday! Woot Woot!

Over the past year we have accumulated quite a lot of books that we have no room for. So, we’re gifting you with all these books which we know is kinda opposite of how birthdays work, but whatever.

And because you typically don’t know what gifts are until after you receive them, we’re making this a mystery book giveaway.

Four times this week, we’re giving away a bundle of books in a different genre.

  • Monday, enter to win a bundle of romance books.
  • Tuesday, we’ll give away a few Middle Grade and YA titles.
  • Thursday, is our wild card, double-blind give away. We’re keeping the genre and titles a secret. But, since we’re not totally evil, all these books will be by the same author.
  • Friday, is our sci-fi/fantasy giveaway.

There are guidelines and rules and such for the giveaways…

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Outlander Recap/Review: To Ransom a Man’s Soul

“But, I really, really wish that the season finale had done one thing better – spent a little more time actually ransoming this man’s soul than on what took it prisoner in the first place.”

Around the World in 80 Books

jamie1This was a very powerful episode, one that’s inspired numerous think pieces for weeks now. Probably one of the most important hours of TV I’ve seen in years. Not many shows would handle rape, especially male rape, in such an in your face way. Your strapping, handsome hero is being victimized and this is what it looks like. You won’t like it, but you’ll feel it.

Very bold.

bjr knifeAnd very successful in showing that rape is about violence and power, not sex. Even the full frontal of Tobias Menzies/Black Jack illustrated the power play. The contrast of Jamie lying defeated while BJR strolls around with confidence. Forcing a reaction from Jamie’s body. Making him think of Claire so the abuser gets the ultimate surrender from the abused –  enjoying his own degradation.

jamie2I can’t say enough about Sam Heughan in this episode. The delirium in the dungeon. The deadness in his…

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