Putting Down Roots and Feeling Restless

I fear sometimes that I am doomed to always feel unsatisfied with my life. That I will always want more. To do more. Experience more.

Such is my dilemma at the moment. I just moved into a new apartment in Brooklyn, finally. No more renting a room from some weird dog lady who smokes her weight in cigarettes every day. This time, my name is on the lease, and I’m here all year. That’s huge for me, because I’ve moved around 3 times just this summer. I do have roommates, but so far, I’ve had very few issues. My apartment is great, even if it’s mostly cosmetic. It’s still mine for the foreseeable future. Don’t think I’m ungrateful in anyway.

Yet, my wanderlust is becoming unbearable. I need to get away for a while. I haven’t traveled since 2008. Do you know how long ago that is?! Of course you do; it’s basic math. I’m feeling trapped, boxed in. The last time I felt that way, I moved to New York. And before that, I tried Orlando, which didn’t last long, because Orlando kinda sucks when you’re away from the theme parks.

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There are moments when I look at the buildings here, or I’m walking in the Financial District or somewhere when I think there’s nowhere else I’d rather be. Other moments I think, “God, I can’t imagine living here for the rest of the year, never mind the rest of my life!”

So, what do you do when your wants and desires are at odds with each other? Am I just meant to be a jet-setter and I’m living in denial trying to be a normal 9-5 chick? I probably just need to get over myself and accept the life I have, even if I’m miserable most days.

Reality sucks…


8 thoughts on “Putting Down Roots and Feeling Restless

  1. I know the feeling! I haven’t traveled since 2009 and I sit in a corporate desk for hours a day.

    The only way I’ve been able to lessen the itch of wanderlust is to fill my free time with exploring my state and surrounding areas! =) Most of the time this only means WEEKEND road trips and day trips…but it’s a way I’ve managed to save a buck while still releasing my need to explore the world, and still being able to build my career.

    Hopefully I’ll be able to fit in some international trips this year, finally. But we shall see, right? ❤

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  2. Maybe you should look into international sales publishing jobs. Then you would get to travel.
    I also feel the need to travel. But I don’t have money so I’m concentrating on doing stuff around NYC. Like cooking classes, I’m looking into going to see the American Ballet Company when they come. I’ve never seen a ballet. I also want to go to the opera. Never done that either. My mom got me an adventures pass to American Museum of Natural History.
    I’m also looking into weekend trips to places around within a few hours of NYC. Buses are cheap.
    I’m also planning to go to Paris, London or Sydney for New Year’s 2016-2017.
    I think you need to get out more. It will help.

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    • I definitely want to do more things in the city, but that’s not where my restlessness comes from. I want to get out of here more often. Now that I don’t have to drop huge amounts of money on moving expenses, I can do more. I want to go to Philly, and I still haven’t made it to Sleepy Hollow.

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  3. I totally understand how you in this post. I tell Charles everyday of how I need to get away and not just NY, away from America. There is something about smelling different air in another part of the world. Waking up to people who are nothing like you. The feeling is overwhelmingly amazing. However, until we can leave the country i am down for a girls trip to Philly or DC!

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